St。 Clare had started up; and; as his manner was when excited; was walking; with hurried steps; up and down the floor。 His fine face; classic as that of a Greek statue; seemed actually to burn with the fervor of his feelings。 His large blue eyes flashed; and he gestured with an unconscious eagerness。 Miss Ophelia had never seen him in this mood before; and she sat perfectly silent。
“I declare to you;” said he; suddenly stopping before his cousin “(It’s no sort of use to talk or to feel on this subject); but I declare to you; there have been times when I have thought; if the whole country would sink; and hide all this injustice and misery from the light; I would willingly sink with it。 When I have been travelling up and down on our boats; or about on my collecting tours; and reflected that every brutal; disgusting; mean; low…lived fellow I met; was allowed by our laws to become absolute despot of as many men; women and children; as he could cheat; steal; or gamble money enough to buy;—when I have seen such men in actual ownership of helpless children; of young girls and women;—I have been ready to curse my country; to curse the human race!”
“Augustine! Augustine!” said Miss Ophelia; “I’m sure you’ve said enough。 I never; in my life; heard anything like this; even at the North。”
“At the North!” said St。 Clare; with a sudden change of expression; and resuming something of his habitual careless tone。 “Pooh! your northern folks are cold…blooded; you are cool in everything! You can’t begin to curse up hill and down as we can; when we get fairly at it。”
“Well; but the question is;” said Miss Ophelia。
“O; yes; to be sure; the question is;—and a deuce of a question it is! How came you in this state of sin and misery? Well; I shall answer in the good old words you used to teach me; Sundays。 I came so by ordinary generation。 My servants were my father’s; and; what is more; my mother’s; and now they are mine; they and their increase; which bids fair to be a pretty considerable item。 My father; you know; came first from New England; and he was just such another man as your father;—a regular old Roman;—upright; energetic; noble…minded; with an iron will。 Your father settled down in New England; to rule over rocks and stones; and to force an existence out of Nature; and mine settled in Louisiana; to rule over men and women; and force existence out of them。 My mother;” said St。 Clare; getting up and walking to a picture at the end of the room; and gazing upward with a face fervent with veneration; “she was divine! Don’t look at me so!—you know what I mean! She probably was of mortal birth; but; as far as ever I could observe; there was no trace of any human weakness or error about her; and everybody that lives to remember her; whether bond or free; servant; acquaintance; relation; all say the same。 Why; cousin; that mother has been all that has stood between me and utter unbelief for years。 She was a direct embodiment and personification of the New Testament;—a living fact; to be acomounted for; and to be acomounted for in no other way than by its truth。 O; mother! mother!” said St。 Clare; clasping his hands; in a sort of transport; and then suddenly checking himself; he came back; and seating himself on an ottoman; he went on:
“My brother and I were twins; and they say; you know; that twins ought to resemble each other; but we were in all points a contrast。 He had black; fiery eyes; coal…black hair; a strong; fine Roman profile; and a rich brown complexion。 I had blue eyes; golden hair; a Greek outline; and fair complexion。 He was active and observing; I dreamy and inactive。 He was generous to his friends and equals; but proud; dominant; overbearing; to inferiors; and utterly unmerciful to whatever set itself up against him。 Truthful we both were; he from pride and courage; I from a sort of abstract ideality。 We loved each other about as boys generally do;—off and on; and in general;—he was my father’s pet; and I my mother’s。
“There was a morbid sensitiveness and acuteness of feeling in me on all possible subjects; of which he and my father had no kind of understanding; and with which they could have no possible sympathy。 But mother did; and so; when I had quarreled with Alfred; and father looked sternly on me; I used to go off to mother’s room; and sit by her。 I remember just how she used to look; with her pale cheeks; her deep; soft; serious eyes; her white dress;—she always wore white; and I used to think of her whenever I read in Revelations about the saints that were arrayed in fine linen; clean and white。 She had a great deal of genius of one sort and another; particularly in music; and she used to sit at her organ; playing fine old majestic music of the Catholic church; and singing with a voice more like an angel than a mortal woman; and I would lay my head down on her lap; and cry; and dream; and feel;—oh; immeasurably!—things that I had no language to say!
“In those days; this matter of slavery had never been canvassed as it has now; nobody dreamed of any harm in it。
“My father was a born aristocrat。 I think; in some preexistent state; he must have been in the higher circles of spirits; and brought all his old court pride along with him; for it was ingrain; bred in the bone; though he was originally of poor and not in any way of noble family。 My brother was begotten in his image。
“Now; an aristocrat; you know; the world over; has no human sympathies; beyond a certain line in society。 In England the line is in one place; in Burmah in another; and in America in another; but the aristocrat of all these countries never goes over it。 What would be hardship and distress and injustice in his own class; is a cool matter of course in another one。 My father’s dividing line was that of color。 Among his equals; never was a man more just and generous; but he considered the negro; through all possible gradations of color; as an intermediate link between man and animals; and graded all his ideas of justice or generosity on this hypothesis。 I suppose; to be sure; if anybody had asked him; plump and fair; whether they had human immortal souls; he might have hemmed and hawed; and said yes。 But my father was not a man much troubled with spiritualism; religious sentiment he had none; beyond a veneration for God; as decidedly the head of the upper classes。
“Well; my father worked some five hundred negroes; he was an inflexible; driving; punctilious business man; everything was to move by system;—to be sustained with unfailing acomuracy and precision。 Now; if you take into acomount that all this was to be worked out by a set of lazy; twaddling; shiftless laborers; who had grown up; all their lives; in the absence of every possible motive to learn how to do anything but ‘shirk;’ as you Vermonters say; and you’ll see that there might naturally be; on his plantation; a great many things that looked horrible and distressing to a sensitive child; like me。
“Besides all; he had an overseer;—great; tall; slab…sided; two…fisted renegade son of Vermont—(begging your pardon);—who had gone through a regular apprenticeship in hardness and brutality and taken his degree to be admitted to practice。 My mothe